Intuitive Art

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Having recently launched my own little Etsy shop and Ko-Fi corner, I thought this would be a good opportunity to talk about my own history and process with intuitive art!

Intuitive art is something I explored in-depth several years ago in my late teens and early twenties. I honestly cannot remember what inspired me to try it; I may have started with trying to draw my own guide(s) and branched out from there. At the time, I was part of a spirituality forum, so I had plenty of people to work with. Intuitive/psychic art isn’t a common form of reading, so I imagine many of those people were intrigued by the notion of receiving a visual reading. I know I certainly was.

I spent a couple years or so experimenting with various forms of intuitive art: simple energy paintings, spirit guide interpretations, higher self interpretations, soul connection portraits, and even aura paintings and past life paintings. I was hungry for information. I wanted to know what the limits were. At what point could I no longer intuit spiritual information?

While I don’t yet know the answer to that question, I do know that my art helped a lot of people, and that in itself was a major motivator. I remember livestreaming sessions where I would paint and the sitter would watch, with a handful of other people chiming in with information they were sensing from my art. I remember people recognizing almost instantly the spirit guide I had painted for them. Even the handful of past life paintings seemed to resonate with the sitters. It was wild.

Never in a million years would I have guessed that this was a skill I could share with the world. I spent much of my childhood as an artsy kid, doodling on scrap paper in school, filling sketchbook after sketchbook with art class assignments or original characters from my stories. I was one of those young artists who sought a life of creativity. “I’ll publish books and illustrate,” I decided upon graduating high school. I attended an expensive art school and lasted two years before I realized art school had killed my passion for drawing.

That was in 2013. Fast-forward to today. I’ve barely drawn in the last several years. I threw myself into writing and gaming and work, instead. Only within the last couple months have I felt the desire to return to art, and I’m sure that’s for a reason. I want to help others with my creations — even if the only thing my creations do is make someone feel happy.

Process

Intuitive art is a strange and subtle thing. When I’m working, the process feels so natural that it’s wild for me to think that I may be connecting with something deeper. I usually begin with colors, because colors come through more easily than shapes or concepts. Once I have colors, I just begin painting. I build up shapes such as faces, bodies, and symbols. As I work, I slide into a focused state. I’m not sure if I could call it trance-like, because I’m still highly aware of what I’m doing, but I have a flow going that I try not to break by talking, typing, or clicking away.

The intuitive part comes in when I’m trying to piece together details, such as colors, facial expressions, symbolism, and even things like hair or dress, which I don’t tend to render in detail (unless the art demands it). Usually, I’ll sit there and feel, “This isn’t right,” and fix something, or I’ll have the urge to incorporate a detail, like a symbol or a certain form of attire. All of it is so subtle that it feels as though I’m simply drawing anything else.

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Due to the nature of my process, these spirit portraits are not intended to be realistic or technically accurate. I focus more on emotions, energies, colors, and symbolism, which I feel is easier for someone else to resonate with. People place different values on physical appearance, so I choose to create portraits that are ethereal, almost alien, with hopes that my clients can connect with the energy conveyed.

As my technical skill improves, my portraits may look a bit more realistic, but for now, technical accuracy is not my goal. My goal is to convey feeling. I want my clients to be able to receive a portrait that they can use as a tool for connection, whether it’s an actual representation of their companions in spirit or a bridge to a more personal relationship. If even one aspect of my art helps my clients, then I will feel as though I’ve succeeded.

While my medium is primarily digital, I am open to exploring intuitive art through traditional mediums — especially paints and inks. However, my space is rather limited in my current apartment, so this may have to wait until the future.

Regardless, I look forward to seeing how this skill evolves!

Dream Doodles

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This is my last week of full-time hours at work. It’s a little surreal. I’m excited for what’s coming next, though! It’ll be so nice to focus on a passion I’ve had since I was young: creating. I’ve spent this last month setting everything up and investing in supplies. I’m basically ready, now, but I’ve been debating on whether I should open an Etsy shop, too. It may be worth trying, anyway.

Now that I have a proper planner, I’ve been trying to work in time to practice my drawing skills: both my technical skills and intuitive skills. It’s been a long time since I’ve drawn on a regular basis, so overcoming the discomfort and dissatisfaction has been a bit of a challenge. I’m trying to focus more on how much I enjoy the process, the feel of pen on paper (or pen on tablet), instead of thinking, “This isn’t good enough.” I know I have a habit of holding myself to extraordinary standards, but I also have to remind myself that I haven’t been working regularly at this skill. Of course I’m not where I want to be! I’ll only get there in time, and with practice.

Last night, I decided to dedicate myself to a low-stress drawing session with Morpheus. A little while back, I asked him through tarot/oracle how I could connect with him, and creativity was one of the answers. He’s helped me with my first few spirit art pieces, I think, but I haven’t yet invited him to draw with me purely for the sake of creating something. I wanted to change that, and perhaps make a habit of it.

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These little sketches (I’ve decided to call them “Dream Doodles”) are far from anatomically correct, but that wasn’t the intention. All I wanted was to pick up a pen and see what came through — see how I could convey energy without worrying over how well I’m drawing. In a world dominated by social media artists, it’s too easy to feel overshadowed by artists who are vastly more skilled than I am. I know I can reach that level of skill with enough practice and dedication, so I might as well focus on the joy of creating.

Easier said than done, I know.

Plans & Priorities

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The other day, I got a pretty big schooling from the universe through a tarot reading. The short version? I need to sit down and make the time for my creative projects, preferably by planning out my activities for each day. The coincidental thing about this reading is that several days prior to receiving it, I had ordered myself the planner you see above. I knew that, going forward, I would have so many minor projects going that finding time for everything would become a hassle if I didn’t keep track of it all.

I’ve been naughty, and the universe is calling me out on it. With so much creativity flowing through me — so many ideas and plans and goals — it’s much easier to sink my time into leisure activities, where I don’t have to worry about putting aside the time to work toward those plans and goals. I’ve been overwhelmed trying to figure out the best way to balance my projects. What should I focus on? Can I really achieve all of these things? What am I best suited for?

I have two weeks remaining of my full-time work, and I’ve spent this month trying my best to set myself up for success once July hits. In all honesty, though, I don’t feel like I’ve achieved much. Pursuing spiritual work as supplemental income was a last-minute decision that I didn’t feel prepared for. I haven’t made much progress with my writing, and though I’ve invested in art and craft supplies, I’ve barely touched those in the last few weeks.

According to my shiny new planner, I’m supposed to be working on my fiction right now. I had everything set in front of me for about twenty minutes, and then I closed it all down and opened this tab to write this post. Presently, I feel more interested in developing my spiritual tools than writing. I’ve always been the sort to go with the flow; whatever my gut or heart feels like doing, I do it. However, this leaves me with quite the predicament: what’s the point of planning out the time if I don’t stick to that time?

Creativity is a fickle thing. It’s not like a chore. You can’t just get up, expend the energy, and be done. And I think that’s where the root of my problem lies. If you’re not feeling a project, it’s much more difficult to sit down and actually work on it. Everyone’s got their tricks on how to power through, but sometimes, those tricks still don’t get the job done. Your fingers itch for that other project. The words or visions just don’t come. Perhaps your work day was simply so draining that you have no juice left for creativity.

In the end, I know I need to be both gentle and firm with myself. This is a time of change for me, and I can’t be so harsh on myself, but at the same time, I need to make progress. I need to plant those seeds and nurture them. I need to make those plans, sort out those priorities, and push through. I’m a dreamer with countless dreams — but dreams are pointless if we don’t make the effort to pursue them.

I may not be working on my fiction tonight, but I will sit down and draw with Morpheus. That seems like a fair trade-off, since I’m in need of the practice (and the portfolio).

Sweet dreams, everyone.